useabezoar: (we’ll get back at them all)
useabezoar ([personal profile] useabezoar) wrote2012-06-29 12:48 pm

[for Sirius]

It had started out as simple snooping. There were records on the island, of past events, past inhabitants, so on and so forth. He was bored, and the bookshelves in the rec room weren't cooperating with him, so he went elsewhere in search of information.

And oh, did he find it in the island's public records.

He sort of wished that he hadn't.

He'd been poking around the public records that the council kept. Births, deaths, et cetera, et cetera, boring boring boring.

Snape was half-heartedly flipping through the marriage registry, which was also boring, up until his the moment when own name jumped out at him on the page. Right there in front of him, in crisp handwriting, was a documented marriage between himself and Regulus Black, many years ago.

He most certainly did not marry Regulus Black, not in this life or any other life, thank you very much.

"What the hell is this?" he snapped, glaring hard at the page. If looks could kill, the paper would be up in flames by now.
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[personal profile] blackedout 2012-07-09 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
Sirius Black was not mates with Severus Snape. Both of them seem in total agreement to this fact despite that they have, somehow, managed to be more than civil in each others presence lately. There's a strange, sad bond that ties them together, but they aren't friends, regardless of how it might seem from the outside.

Case in point: It's still instinctive for Sirius to suspect Snape of something nefarious when the surly bastard gets to snooping around, and just as instinctive for Sirius to follow along with the hope of catching him in the act. Catching him in the act is a bit more casual these days, and involves more leaning casually in doorways with a cup of coffee than any actual sneaking, but the point is, Sirius is there.

"Filing an affidavit certifying how much you're secretly in love with me?" he asks, bony hip propped against the door frame as he sips from his cup. "Aww, Snivelly, you could have just said!"
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[personal profile] blackedout 2012-07-10 09:39 am (UTC)(link)
Back home, the insult would have swept by Sirius with virtually no impact whatsoever; he'd fielded much worse accusations, and many of them from Snape himself. It isn't even a new jab, and has about it the awkward desperation of their school days. Here, though, it hits home, and that fact alone is enough for irritation to boil up hot from Sirius' gut. He is not supposed to care what Snape says, not ever.

Sirius' eyes narrow as he slowly lowers his cup.

"What are you doing in here, Snivellus?" he asks, and pushes off the door frame so that he's effectively blocking the way out.
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[personal profile] blackedout 2012-07-12 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
"Something worthwhile about whom?" Sirius asks, and his eyes dart down to the desk and the book Snape's positioned himself in front off. With a roll of his eyes Sirius steps fully into the room. "It completely fucking baffles me how you ever fooled anyone about anything," he says, and elbows the other man out of the way.

Marriage Registry reads the tidy block writing on the front of the book, and Sirius frowns. Fortunately he has the forethought to set aside his cup of coffee, as what he finds when he flips open the front cover is enough to make him drop or throw anything in his hands.

He'd not even known Regulus had been on the island.

Body reacting before Sirius has any time to think about it, between one heartbeat and the next he's grabbed hold of Snape by the front of the shirt and backed him up against the nearest wall.

"You fucked my little brother?" he asks, eyes flashing.
blackedout: (Don't even try it.)

[personal profile] blackedout 2012-07-16 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Snape has never made it a secret that he thinks Sirius stupid, and perhaps were Sirius a bully of the typical stripe, it might be true. Being reactive and cruel doesn't negate intelligence, though, not at Hogwarts and not here, and after a beat Sirius narrows his eyes, hands still fisted in the front of Snape's shirt.

"Not here. Back home."

Regulus had been at school with them, had thrown in with the Death Eaters around the same time as Snape. Their parents had quietly supported the decision, of course, but Regulus hadn't been stupid, either. Just naive.

The perfect target for someone like Snape, who had a particular loathing for Regulus' older brother.
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[personal profile] blackedout 2012-07-19 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
It's clear enough that Snape is telling the truth, but it still takes Sirius a long moment to reconcile that with the idea that blame has to fall elsewhere. Against all odds, Sirius had begun to feel something of a kinship with Snape—Not friendship, but the solidarity of experiences shared, feelings understood—and this feels like the sharp slap of betrayal.

When he releases Snape, it's as abruptly as he grabbed him, hands and body both jerked away as Sirius paces to the other side of the room. A good distance between them, he stops and looks back at the man he just assaulted.

"You wanted to," he accuses, as if that's any sort of crime. Regulus was a Black, and Sirius' little brother besides; a lot of people had wanted to shag him. "He dies, you know. Trying to get back at You-Know-Who, he fucking dies, and you get to shag him when I've not seen him since I left school!"

Frustrated, he kicks out at a nearby chair, toppling it onto its side with a clatter. It doesn't make him feel much better.
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[personal profile] blackedout 2012-07-29 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
Anger and despair pulses through Sirius for one white-hot moment but then abates to a low, tolerable hum when Snape continues. Had they been younger, had Sirius known just a bit less than he presently did, he might have tried to do Snape a harm for the first flippant remark. As it is, he swallows back the impulse and turns his hate inward, where it seems more appropriate these days.

"So had I," Sirius allows in gruff reply. He debates telling Snape what Regulus had done, how key he'd ultimately been before he sacrificed himself, but it somehow feels like betraying a trust. Perhaps part of him will always balk at sharing a confidence with Severus Snape.